It is a special day here on blogspot.
March 1st, 2010, tired of all the complaints in my head I decided to start an experiment - daily gratitudes. I committed to 1 month.
In early January, I realized that 1 month was about to turn into 15 years.
"Should I do something special?" I asked myself.
In 2020 in recognition of the 10 year anniversary I signed up for a women's retreat that included the theme of gratitude. I went on the retreat, however my dad unexpectedly died a couple weeks prior, so the focus was more grief than gratitude.
I wasn't feeling that motivated to do anything this year. Then I looked at my calendar and realized, the yoga and creativity retreat I'd already signed up for was the anniversary weekend.
So that is where I am right now. However, I took some time before I left to reflect. The first thing I noticed as I logged on today, is my password contains the name, at one point, I thought I'd give a child.
The second thing I noticed is, after skimming thru my 2010 posts, despite feeling much better about where my life is right now, I recognize that woman. She sounds the same.
She sounds like me.
And then I wondered if it is common for the most beautiful things we do to barely be noticed?
Do other people feel that the most important things they do are barely noticed?
I imagine parents may feel this way all the time.
Today, March 1st, if I did my Math right, I will be writing my 27,400 gratitude in my journal.
One of those barely noticeable beautiful things - it's not too often these days that I wish for time to move - to get me out of my current circumstances into a supposed better future moment. It still happens for sure, but now after the thought pops into my head, my follow up thought usually switches to, "Help me to be here now."
And I think that is the point of a gratitude practice
"Help me to see what I have right here
help me to appreciate what I have right now."
