It's so cold

#1 - It's not cold but I couldn't get warm when I got home at 9pm last night and I buried myself in blankets so that I woke up sweating.  It still feels cold.  I don't feel well today and I'm so glad I can easily shift my plans for tonight and just curl up in bed after dinner.

#2 - I'm also glad I had enough energy to start putting together the minestrone soup which is simmering right now - it's the perfect meal for today.

#3 - I couldn't have imagined when I came across Glennon Doyle Melton last fall how instrumental her voice would be to me.  I listened to another interview today with her talking about Love Warrior

"What matters to me is that there is this voice inside of me, it's inside of every single one of us, that is if we are honest and still enough will tell us what to do next.  And every time we say we don't know what to do - or whether we should stay or go, we are not being honest, we just don't want to do the thing that the voice is telling us to do...there is this betrayal that happens when we hear the still small voice but allow the fear voice to drown it out...the book is about self-trust."  Glennon Doyle Melton

Yes I agree that is what the book is about and it is waiting for me at the library to read again.

#4 - I see my soccer game on Sunday is not only posted for our first game of the year outdoors, it is also in a new park to me, at least I've never played soccer there.

#5 - My Bed

I'm grateful to have a bed with blankets and pillows.  

I'm grateful to have a small light beside my bed 

that can lightly illuminate the room.  

I'm grateful it's quiet here

tonight

I'm grateful to have a pink stuffed bear 

that doubles both as a great pillow prop for reading 

and also something to hold when I need it

I'm grateful to have A Year with Rilke beside my bed

which I usually both start and end my day with

or at least end my day with

if I forget

I'm grateful

to not be afraid

when I climb into this bed

of bombing

or gunfire 

or the silence between

I'm grateful for nourishment

in soup

in comfort

I'm grateful to be here

breathing 

this beautiful mess

for a moment

it's enough