Out of My Head

#1 - I don't often have impulses to contact my former partner anymore (luckily) but today I definitely did when I was excited to come upon this duet.  Will Evans is someone we both enjoyed as an opener to Trevor Hall (a favorite musician of both of us) and Tristan Prettyman someone I'm also a fan of, so I got so excited to see this.  Instead I will just post it here.

#2 - I was invited to a perimenopause/menopause gathering at a friend's house  - a gratitude both because it is a topic that I want to learn more about, but also just because a friend invited me (because I usually do most of the inviting!)

#3 - Speaking of which I'm going to hear music tonight from some favorite musician friends that a different friend made me aware of/invited me to.  (Brothers Frantzich)  The first time I will see them since one of them gifted me a guitar.

#4 - I'm not going to explain the context of this brief email I received today, "So 11/30 at 11(?) at which cemetery?" But the ridiculousness of it made me laugh out loud. (It is not related to anyone dying).

#5 - I don't think I'm a particularly good singer, and that's fine. So when the musician that gave me the guitar said I have a beautiful voice I took it with a grain of salt.  But once in a while, maybe in a very narrow range, I do think it sounds good. Singing along with the song on this post I felt it, and hopefully I'll feel that way singing tonight.

The Wild Edge of Sorrow

 #1 - Today was the 1 year anniversary of my book club which has been a huge gift this past year as far as connecting with friends and creating community. It is fitting that the book The Wild Edge of Sorrow - talking about grief led to a deep discussion.

#2 - After book club my 2 cousins, who are in book club, stayed and talked quite a while longer with me.  They are an immense gift in my life.

#3 - I passionately talked about Prayers around the Cross, a service at Holden village where people silently shared and were supported in their pain and grief.  I said our culture does not offer space for that, and until we can figure this out, grief that has no outlet will be redirected (shootings for example), this is hard and critical work.

#4 - One of my friends said they were going to share something vulnerable, and as they spoke I felt a quickening in my heart that meant I was being directed to share a vulnerable seed within my life too.  I wasn't expecting to share that seed at all, but I understood in the way my body reacted that it needed to come out.

#5 - I have learned that after book club I have a hard time falling asleep (too stimulating apparently). So I will put my computer by my bed so I can switch to an ASMR audio if needed, however right now I'm not convinced it is necessary as I'm pretty tired.