Sometimes Permission is Enough

 Today was supposed to be our first outdoor soccer game of the season, but due to the weather/snow it was cancelled.  Luckily I could walk over to the community center and exercise there instead.  I did a lift n pump class and I started to cry at one point. It is still hard. However until I wrote this I totally forgot about that.  

I actually was really grateful for the cold and snowy day.  Since I unusually got groceries at 8pm Saturday night (which was a great time to grocery shop, so quiet!), I didn't have anywhere to drive today.  While eating lunch I called a friend who had an adventurous canoeing 2nd date Friday and she had a great time!  She was divorced a few years back so I'm so happy for her to have a positive dating experience.

Also one of my soccer teammates emailed the women on the team to see if any of us would sign up with him for a rec "older" frisbee golf league.  Apparently there are a lot more men that want to play than women, so if a guy signs up with a woman he is guaranteed a spot. I already signed up for park and rec tennis those days this summer, but I told him I'd look into it next year.

I was stressed about some things that have taken my attention away from what I've wanted to work on (like a painful ear infection this week), but today that shifted.  And I even walked around my complex and wrote down addresses of people that have the door I want.  One of the major compromises from living in a house to a condo is less light.  However I could replace my dining room door with one with a window which would help some.  The doors here have to be fairly uniform.  But many people have made this update and I'm hoping someone could tell me where they got the door and recommend someone to do the work.  My thought originally was that after I'd worked thru the bulk of my mourning I'd get a new door and invite some more light into my life. I'm not quite there yet, but I'm ready to at least scatter some seeds in that direction.

Oh and I almost forget.  I noticed my bathroom sink was draining slowly.  I took all the piping apart beneath the sink (which just means unscrewing a few sections) and cleaned it out.  It was disgusting inside and stinky, so much better now.

And finally after last week thinking maybe I'd take a break from writing here, today I felt inspired to.  So sometimes just giving permission to let something go, allows the space and energy for it to continue.