Waking Up

#1 -  I see the last time I posted on here was the day before my life changed, and there was a garter snake involved. Hmmm, what does that mean?

The last few weeks I have lost my connection to nature.  It has been absent and non-existent, which is to say

I lost my connection to myself.

I had a pretty crappy morning, but something this afternoon propelled my feet into motion and I didn't need another person to motivate me to take a walk.  I just went on my own, with an idea and a knowledge it was more than I've done up to now. and I completed it. I walked to and thru nature.  I sat down.  I took it in.

#2 - I really feel how if I (one) cannot feel the aliveness in nature around us, something is dead within us.

#3 - I recall yesterday stopping to look at a tree changing, and I know that something too was waking up inside me.

#4 - And now I hopefully have got a bit of exercise so I can rest.  The rest I've been doing has not been because my body is tired, at least not in the usual way.  Maybe I can do "normal" things.  Read?  Call someone?  We'll see.

#5 - I actually skipped a few gratitudes all together earlier this month (absent from my journal) for the first time since 2010. I forgot about it along with many other things. When I started writing them again, they were things I was literally noticing to be thankful for, however the feeling of gratitude was absent. When I walked up to my building today I stopped to slightly smile at a kid climbing up a light post with an adult spotting. 

An Answer

 #1 - I eat on my patio often, and for the first time today I was graced by the appearance of a garter snake, who abruptly turned around upon noticing my presence.

#2 - I learned a friend recently also loves Khalil Gibran's The Prophet. I asked if she'd heard the song Jason Mraz wrote for his sister's wedding using lyrics from the book.  She hadn't so I sent it to her today. (God Rests In Reason)

#3 - Which led me to listening to a Mraz mix on Youtube while I worked and taking a break during one song to dance and also hearing some songs I'd never heard such as Silent Love Song.

#4 - I was trying to figure out how to buy tickets to a cross country race tomorrow.  Then (when I was doing something else) I realized they don't charge for cross country races because it would be pretty hard to enforce.

#5 - A friend emailed to genuinely ask for advice.  I felt like Dear Sugar with my response pouring out. Not the "right" answer, but "an" answer at least.